Monday, February 24, 2014

January 25, Part 2

Keeping me in the curl of his arm, Nobek Oses ushered me down too many corridors to count.  I had planned to take note of how to get to his quarters on my own, but with that damned thing vibrating my clit, I couldn’t think straight.  Walking shifted the stimulator minutely, but it was enough to intensify the sensations.  Curls of knee-knocking pleasure continuously swam up my crotch and into my gut.  Eager juices ran down the insides of my legs.  I wouldn’t be surprised if I left drip marks on the springy floors as Oses guided me to his room.

I’m sure we passed others on our way.  I can’t imagine the sight I must have been.  Did I moan all the way?  Was I hunched over as arousal coiled tight in my belly?  What was the look on my face?  I have no idea.  All I knew was how fucking horny that contraption made me and how trapped yet secure I felt in Oses’ grip.  I didn’t dare defy the huge Nobek, not with his warning still ringing in my ears.  I wasn’t about to test his threat that he would increase the level of vibration and make me climax where I stood.

I’m quite sure he took me on the longest route possible to get to his quarters.  That insane walk went on forever, and by the time we were nearly there, I was dying to come.   I actually wondered how awful it would be to stop right there in the corridor and refuse to take another step.  I almost didn’t care I’d be forcing Oses to make good on his promise to make me orgasm in front of whoever might be around.  I hurt bad.

At last the torment of our journey ended.  A door opened in front of my face, and Oses brought me inside his quarters.

The vibrations switched off, leaving me panting just inside the room.  The door behind me closed.  Oses released me, and my hands moved towards my poor, desperate crotch.

The steely tone of my companion froze me.  “You will not touch yourself, Shalia.  If you do, I will bind your hands and refuse to let you climax during our time together.”

I stared up at him, my eyes wide enough to tempt them to fall out of my head.  Oses stood over me, an implacable huge creature of destruction.  Well, I felt nearly destroyed at any rate.  His expression wasn’t cruel, merely set.  Determined.  He meant what he said.

My fingers curled into my palms with the effort it took to not rub myself and end my frustration.  It nearly killed me to not do it. 

“Good pet.”  He gave me a smile that warmed me to my toes despite the agony he’d put me through.  “Come over here.  We’re going to discuss our expectations of this meeting.”

He walked over to a decent-sized sleeping mat and sat on its edge.  It wasn’t as big as mine.  In fact, nothing about Oses’ quarters equaled my suite.  It slowly registered that while my living quarters consisted of a sitting room, bedroom, and bath facility, all Oses had was the one room with a bathroom half the size of mine. 

The flooring was padded and soft.  It was a solid surface, but it had the give of a carpeted floor, much like the floors in my room.  Oses had a table and chair in one corner.  There the flat disk of the typical Kalquorian computer sat, without the vid up to indicate it was on.

There was a piece of furniture I couldn’t quite figure out.  It sort of looked like a pommel horse without the handles.  The horizontal beam was heavily padded with what appeared to be black leather.  The A-framed supporting beams had metal latches midway down and at the bottom of their lengths.  The room was way too small for Oses to be performing gymnastics with that hulking body of his, so it was a real mystery.

He had a few vid plaques hanging on the walls, but I couldn’t read any of the hieroglyphic writing on them.  There was also a still picture of three Kalquorian men and a woman.  I’d not seen a Kalquorian female before, so I couldn’t help but stare in curiosity as I drew closer to Oses.  She wasn’t as big as the men, but she had more muscles showing in her flowing sleeveless dress than any woman I’d ever seen.   The chick had biceps our steroid-fed ground troops would have died for.  I sure wouldn’t have wanted her to take a swing at me.

“A still of my parents, taken many years ago,” Oses said, noting my interest.  “You may take off your clothes and kneel before me, pet.”

I wondered if the Nobek’s mother and fathers were still alive.  I didn’t want to ask Oses, since it might kill the mood.  I was so fixated on that detail that it took me several seconds to register all that he had said.

I blinked at the big weapons commander.  Had he just ordered me to strip and kneel?

He looked at me with great patience.  “I do not like to repeat myself, Shalia.  It is grounds for punishment.  Do you want to find out about discipline so early in our dealings with each other?”

Whoa, okay, now I got why Oses had stressed how commanding he was before.  This Nobek didn’t play around, apparently.  From the look on his face, sex was serious business for him.  I wasn’t sure of what I’d gotten myself into or if I should keep going.  However, I was still pretty needy after that crazy walk from my quarters to his.  Just looking at Oses made my knees wobble.  If for no other reason, I needed to kneel to keep from falling on my ass.

Trembling all over, I pulled my shirt and skirt off, kicking my shoes to the side as I went.  Oses bent and picked up the things I discarded, folding them neatly and laying them on the nearby desk.

My bra came off.  I hesitated, wondering if I was supposed to take off the vibrating pad strapped to my clit as well.

“You may leave that on,” Oses told me.  He held out his hand.  “I will give you support as you go to your knees.”

The tart retort “Oh, such a gentleman,” rose to my lips.  It didn’t get out of my mouth, however, not after checking the Nobek’s firm expression.  Once in a great while I show I have some sense.  I swallowed my cleverness and knelt down between his booted feet.

“Lace your fingers behind your neck, so that your breasts are lifted.  Widen your legs out so your pussy is displayed.”  Oses waited for me to obey.

I really didn’t know what to think of all this.  Who was this man to tell me to show myself to him like some enslaved slut?  We barely knew each other.  Yet I found myself doing as told, my body surrendering to his wants even as my head filled with resistance.

Oses chuckled.  “You should see the look on your face, Shalia.  It is obvious you are thinking heavily about defiance.  You may have thought you’d been with controlling men before, but I think you will find I am in a league of my own.  Legs wider, pet.  I want that lovely pussy wide open.”

I couldn’t help the sound of protest that slipped from my throat.  Yet I spread my thighs as far apart as I was able.  He was right about one thing; Oses brought domineering to levels I’d not even guessed at. 

“Very nice, though I could have done without the whining.  You have much to learn if you are to be pleasured by me, Shalia.”  The Nobek’s eyes narrowed as he spoke.

I couldn’t take anymore.  “You are taking this lord and master thing a bit to the extreme,” I said.

“You like it.  No, don’t try to deny it or I will punish you and send you back to your quarters with no climax.  Not only do you automatically move to obey my orders, but your breathing is fast, you’re flushed, your nipples are engorged, and your pussy is dripping on my floor.”  Oses caught my chin in his hand.  “You enjoy being mastered, pet.  You have met a most exacting ‘lord’, as you put it, and your entire being is thrilled at the prospect.”

I didn’t want to admit he was right.  I’m a survivor, damn it.  I’m strong, not some weak girl who looks to men to take care of her. 

I asked, “If I want it so bad, then why is my brain questioning all this?”

“A very good question,” Oses agreed.  “One I am happy you asked.  It is the mind’s natural function to question things, even things in which the facts all point to one conclusion.  In those instances, it is only fear that brings about such noise.  Your head resists doing what the rest of you knows is right for you because you are afraid.”

Well, he had the afraid part of the equation right anyway.  “How do you know what’s right for me?” I asked.

“I don’t know everything about you, but some of it my instincts tell me,” the Nobek said.  “I’d like to find out the rest.  That’s why we’re going to have a little chat before we go too far with this.  We need to establish the ground rules for our interactions.”

That was a plan I could get behind.  If I was going to put myself in the big hands of this demanding Nobek, I definitely wanted rules.

“Okay,” I said.  “Let’s do that.”

He nodded and released my chin.  “Very good.  As you have no doubt figured out, I am in absolute control here.  In my quarters, when we are enjoying intimacies, my word is your law.”

I raised an eyebrow.  Oses grinned.

“Only in here, Shalia.  And only because you allow it.”

I considered.  So far, that sounded okay.  “Sure,” I said.

“Yes, Master,” he prompted me.  “We will do this right from the start, pet.”

“Yes, Master.”  Saying the words made me feel smaller than ever next to the behemoth, but at the same time I felt secure under his power.  I liked it.

“When you come in here to spend time with me, you will immediately take your clothes off.  Then you will kneel as you are doing now and wait for my instructions.”  Oses reached down and stroked my hair, as if to take the sting of his expectations out of the equation.  “Your eyes will be downcast unless I want you to look at me, as I do now.  It may be I choose to let you kneel for some time before I acknowledge your presence, but I will be very aware of you, pet.  I will note every breath you take, every small shift of your body, every tremble you experience.”

I believed him.  I had the feeling Oses missed nothing.

He kept on.  “When I give you a command, you will not question it.  You will simply do as you’re told.  If it is something that upsets you more than mere nervousness, you will say, ‘Will my master allow me to speak?’  That way I will know you are more uncomfortable than usual and we can discuss what is upsetting you.”

That sounded good to me.  I felt even more secure, knowing Oses would listen to me if things got a little too weird.

His instructions continued.  “If you are in an absolute panic about anything we are doing and you need it to stop immediately, you will say sholt.  You are already familiar with that, so we will keep it as your signal that a halt must be called to our play.  Do you understand my instructions so far, Shalia?”

“Yes, Master,” I answered. 

“Excellent.  Repeat them back to me.”

So I recited the whole business.  He looked pleased.

“One final expectation that I have for you, pet.  This is the most important one, so if you cannot perform it, we will stop right here.  You will be absolutely honest with me at all times.  I will tolerate no lies or half-truths.”  His purple eyes narrowed.  “Kalquorian sex play can be more extreme than Earther, from what I’ve heard.  It could affect you emotionally as well as physically.  For that reason, I must know exactly where your head is at all times.  Can you do that, Shalia?”

I thought about it.  It sounded easy enough on the surface.  I do see myself as a pretty honest person.  However, I also realized something else:  I’d kept a lot of secrets in the past.  I’d honed that ability to get along under Earth’s tyranny.  By now, it might have become more instinct than something under conscious control. 

Thinking about that, I had a feeling what Oses wanted from me wasn’t going to be all that simple to give.

“Will my master allow me to speak?” I asked, since I thought my answer was going to venture way beyond a simple yes or no.

“Yes, pet.  What concerns you?”

I swallowed, my heart throbbing at the considerate tone in his voice.  How could a man be so demanding and compassionate at the same time?  Oses had this thing down to an art.

“You said you need to know what’s in my head all the time.  Is that really necessary?”

He nodded slowly, his gaze boring into mine.  “Absolutely.  I cannot care for you properly if you hold back information, especially anything that interferes with you being completely in the moment with me.”

I took a deep breath.  He wanted honesty, so he was going to get it.  “I don’t know if I can do that.  You see, what I have in my head is not always very nice.  It’s become instinct to keep some things to myself.”

Oses separated a length of my hair from the rest, gently twirling it around his finger.  “Such is the effect of a repressive government that strives to mold all facets of one’s morality.  It’s not surprising that the soul would battle to find a way to preserve even a small piece of itself in such a fashion.”  He smiled, but managed to look sad at the same time.  “We will make a compromise, Shalia, because you don’t know me well enough yet to hand over absolute trust.  I must earn it first.”

“What compromise?” I asked.  I hoped it was something I could live with, because I really, really liked Oses.  The care he was taking with me in that moment was solidifying that regard.  That he felt he had to earn anything from me was amazing.

“You will promise to try your very best to share everything with me.  You will place your greatest effort in this.  If I feel you are holding back in any way, I will push you to get past it.  Sometimes this might be unpleasant for us both.  Yet we cannot share the kind of intimacies I crave ... and the ones I think you want as well ... without finding a way for you to be completely open with me.”

Funny enough, it was this kind of  vulnerability Oses advocated that scared me more than anything else.  Could I really let myself be that unguarded?  Being beaten bloody sounded a lot less daunting at that moment.

“I can try,” I said slowly.  The hesitancy in my tone told us both I was unsure of success.

Oses pursed his lips.  “I suppose that will have to be enough to start with.  If I don’t see any real effort however, we cannot do this Shalia.  Remember, I don’t have just your welfare on my hands.”

I blinked.  “What do you mean?”

He raised his eyebrows.  “You’re pregnant, pet.  It’s true you aren’t showing yet and the research I’ve done on the matter tells me that in these early weeks, we may play as if you aren’t.  It will become an issue later however.”

Well, duh.  Dumb Shalia.  I’d been so overwhelmed by Oses, I’d forgotten my little hitchhiker.

Oses wasn’t done.  “You’ll have to report to your doctor about our sexual relationship.  Before we get too far, we need to know what restrictions need to be in place and when.”

I arched an eyebrow at him.  I so did not want to have such a conversation with Tep.  “You mean, I have to discuss my having sex with you with the doctor?”

“Absolutely.  We are not taking any chances with you or your babe’s health just to fuck.”  Oses smirked.  “You don’t have to tell him exactly who you’re getting familiar with.  He’d probably assume it’s with Betra anyway.”

I sighed.  “This is so embarrassing.”

“But you’ll do it, or we’ll say goodbye right now.”

I squirmed.  I was still feeling the effects of the damned vibrator on my clit.  The last thing on my mind was walking away from Oses.  I wanted his hands on me.  I wanted his mouth on me too.  I wanted both his dicks in me.

“All right,” I sighed at last.  “I agree to all your terms.”

Oses chuckled and shook his head.  “You’re getting something out of this too, you know.”

“I sure hope so.”

He laughed out loud at my dour tone.  “Oh pet, you are going to be so much fun to train.  I foresee much discipline in your future, and I am not at all disappointed with that.”  He ran his fingers over my scalp, stroking my hair with an air of delight.  “Shall we start?”

“Ready when you are.”  At his sudden cold stare, I hastily added, “Master.”

“Very good.  Stand up and turn your back to me.”

I did so.  Oses didn’t help me to my feet this time, and I felt awkward getting up with my hands still clasped behind my neck.  I wasn’t sure that I had to leave them there, but it seemed a good idea to err on the side of caution. 

I made my clumsy way to my feet and turned as I’d been instructed.  “Legs apart,” Oses said.  “Whenever possible, your pussy is to be open for my gaze and use.”

The firm tone and his words had juices flooding all over again.  Pavlov’s dog has nothing on my crotch.

I nearly jumped out of my skin when strong hands closed over my buttocks.  Oses rubbed the mounds, massaging them with delightfully calloused fingers.  His palms were warm, and I nearly moaned with delight.  He has a strong touch.

“You have had dulmaLaxan?” he asked.

I’d heard the words before and thought they had something to do with sex, but for the life of me I couldn’t remember the acts they went to.  “I don’t know what those words refer to, Master,” I gasped.

Dulma is spanking, usually of the bare-handed kind.   Laxan is a Kalquorian man’s primary cock fucking your ass.” 

“Yes, I’ve had those done to me, Master.”

“Excellent.  Have you been exposed to straps, floggers, or the like?”

My pussy gave an involuntary clench.  “Yes, Master.” 

One of Oses’ hands moved from my ass to my pussy.  His fingers slid along my juicy slit and I moaned.

His voice came out in a growl.  “I take it you enjoyed being beaten.”

“Yes, Master.”

“And restrained?”

“Yes, Master.”

“Good.  That’s where we’ll start then.”


  1. I'm sorry Tracy but Oses is just a bully. He is not loving at all, what is Shalia thinking!!!!! She should be screaming SHOLT, getting drssed and running to Betra. Oses is totally disrespectful of Betra, and he plans to beat Shalia (his words) a woman who is pregnant in the first trimester of her pregnancy, what a selfish brutish pig. Regardless of what the doctor says, no pregnant woman should be beaten, what are you thinking!

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    2. Sorry made a mistake in the last comment so removed it what I meant to say was.... If you look into the BDSM lifestyle many pregnant women continue to have spankings and flogging you just have to stay to the fleshy parts like the bottom or thighs you just have to remember with restraints not to cut off circulation its all safe sane consensual

    3. He is a Dom not a bully. If he was a bully he wouldn't give her a safeword. Betra beat her ass hard, Oses is just into M/s relationships. Total difference from being a bully.

  2. I have mixed feelings now on Oses, I will give he did warn Shalia he is very controlling, but he does make me nervous, I think he might just be a bit more then Shalia is ready to deal with, part of my can appreciate he wants her to see a Dr, but part of me feels if he even has the question in his head will this be safe in her condition, then it should not be considered, not just for the physical risk but for Shalias emotional well being. I may jumping ahead of myself and assuming the worst, we shall see. He is a bit scary.

  3. He's a Dom. Everything he just said a Dom would. He'll be careful with her or she'll safeword. If he doesn't listen he loses her trust and her. He'll never see her again and probably have the crap kicked out of him.

    1. I agree Moonangle. He will push her limits but I have a feeling from the past she really does enjoy having a strong Dom in her life.

  4. Oses will be careful and this type of play is perfectly safe during pregnancy as long as it is a normal uncomplicated pregnancy. I played while pregnant. My OB said no impact close to the baby and no bruising.

  5. I think she'll be able to discover a lot about herself with him. He's not going to let her hide her internal battles from him or from herself. It may not always be pleasant, but it will prepare her for the deep, soul bearing intimacy she'll ultimately experience with her clan.

  6. I actually got pulled away while reading this three times, and I'm glad. It allowed me time to digest. I'm not quite all about Oses, yet, but I was much more into the scene and Oses by the third time I came back and began reading. He's obviously a Dom that leans more on the side of Master/slave play, which is hot, but something we haven't really seen a lot of from Shalia's Diary.

    Betra spanked the crap out her bottom the first time they were together. OTK. And he didn't say anything about her baby, or doctor. I think Oses being more intense is throwing ppl off. He's obviously researched different types of play and has a good idea of what he can and cannot do. Plus Shalia is into it and after reading the last section I'm drooling in anticipation for Thurs.

  7. There is no problem w/a Dom/sub relationship during his sub's pregnancy. If you have a well studied Dom he will know how far, how long, and how often he can push his sub during her pregnancy and most sub's enjoy the hand. The art of binding can take place all the way till delivery day. I know of two subs that asked their Dom's to bind them with flat straps to help reduce the swelling in their ankles and legs. One was bond while she was in labor, arms and legs. The Dom was in the delivery room with the nurses and doctor. The sub labored for over 13 yrs and her Dom never left her side. He adjusted the binding when she told him to and was there to cut the cord when his daughter was born. After giving birth and resting for a good while the Dom took her out of her bindings, she showered and nursed the Baby and asked the doctor if her husband/Dom could rebind her.
    For three days my friend and her Dom stayed in the hospital. And today 27 years later her Dom still treats her like a queen and a sub at the same time. Their daughter doesn't have or want a Dom but doesn't think its odd to see her mother bond in a rope corset with welps on her thighs and back side.
    Doms don't have to be bullies and most of them aren't but they are in complete control 99.9% of the time. You either enjoy it or you use your safety word and leave.

  8. I am not sure and don't know much about "play" other then what I read but I do feel Oses is careing and will take care of her, I can not see him not taking care due to the fact that we on are so few and being with Shalia is a treat.

  9. The most important concept in a power exchange relationship such as this is that the true power lies in the hands of the submissive - he or she chooses to hand over power to the Dominant. The Dominant can only do what the submissive truly wants, even if the submissive is unaware of what she wants. Oses points this out to Shalia. And the bottom line is that he is following the tenets of BDSM by immediately establishing a safe, sane, and consensual environment. What an amazing opportunity this can be for Shalia as she learns more about herself! I can't wait for Thursday!

  10. I was enjoying this post up until the whole rules/master /pet part started... I don't mind light BDSM but to be this intense on their first encounter is a bit too much! He's also assuming the relationship is going to last a while and I thought Shalia didn't want a permanent thing during the trip and this fling sounds like a lot of investment from Shalia's emotions and time...

  11. Totally agreed with tkaries, some light BDSM is acceptable but not during pregnancy, I don’t have any experience with it myself nor I know of anybody who goes beyond some spanking but this entry makes me very uncomfortable; during my pregnancies my babies were always the first thing in my mind, in choosing food or exercise or rest it was always – what are the consequences to the baby, but Shalia doesn’t even remember that she is responsible for that life inside her. So to sum this up, I’ll keep reading it because Tracy writes stories that are compelling but this is not one I can identify with. I’m too left-brain to be led by my hormones because I’m bored.

  12. Wow Tracy! You've really stirred up some emotional responses in this excerpt of Shalia's Diary. Personally, I. HATE. PAIN. But Hey! Some people love it and I certainly don't hold that against them.I even find it titillating to read about it as long as it's someone else's pain. So all I can say is...come on Thursday!


  14. That's what I asked? When is Shalia going to find her Dramok. I actually fund Shalia's trip on the transport far more exciting than I thought I would. Lots of drama and real time action plus Shalia's sex life is hot. I do agree with some of the others, Shalia never seems to think about her baby but she is not a real person. Just a fictional character having lots of fun sexual adventures.

  15. Oh my......just wow! I think this intense relationship with Oses with help Shalia to learn more about herself and also help her grow as a person, and I think this will help her to be more honest with herself about her feelings and her thoughts about the future of her and her "hitchhicker".

  16. One of these days I would love to see her say sholt to one of these guys. They make a lot of promises but would they really let her walk away if she wanted to? Even Shalia must have a limit and I would love to see a sub just once stand up and tell one of these guys to pound sand. I don't think it's ever happened in any of these books and I think the power shift could be fascinating.

    1. I will agree Skywest, it's something I have thought about, more then once, not cowardly to admit hey to much for me. It would be interesting to see the reaction and how the Kalquorian men would improvise to please them, I would love to see a truly dominant woman with a Kalquorian male or clan to and see how they would deal with a woman that demanded to be called Mistress, that could be truly interesting. Pictures lady Heather from csi Los Vegus

    2. Skuest* forgive the typo my bad.